WELCOME TINE!!!! OUR NEWEST MUCHNESS CHALLENGER!!!!

I love introducing new challengers… reading their intros is always so special to me, and then I get to post them and share them and, well, I wish I didn’t always end up doing it at 1 in the morning, ya know? It puts me in a great mood getting all giddy about what their gonna post and then I gotta just take my muchy mood and go to bed so I can wake up for work the next day. But this isn’t about me. It’s about Tine and her Muchness seeking mission. To be honest, her intro made me tear up a bit. I think it’s really beautiful. In her own words, here’s Tine!
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Wow! I can’t believe that I’m here and ready to start my 30 Days of Muchness Challenge!!! This is something I have thought about doing since I saw the first few participants, but was too chicken to commit. But thanks to a few women and convincing “shoves”, I’m here! And I’m excited! And a little nervous, because there have been some amazing women ahead of me. But it’s not just that they are amazing, they are inspiring. Through their eyes and hearts, I have gained a little more “Much” in my life, as well as the courage to chase it down full speed ahead. There are two big reasons I think I have lost my Muchness, which I’ll explain below.

My name is Tine (pronounced Tina – yes, I have to explain it often…blame the German parents :-)) I am 43 years old, but most days, I feel much younger. My husband Gabhán and I are the parents of 2 beautiful boys, Aodhán, 6, and Caolán, 3. Their existence is miraculous to me because in a previous married life, due to issues with my ovaries, I was told I would never, ever have children. But miracles do happen, first by meeting my husband and then in the uneventful and beautiful pregnancies with my two boys. Not that there wasn’t heartache…we had a miscarriage before Aodhán, and then another before our pregnancy with our little girl, Caoimhe (pronounced Keeva).

I met Tova and a few other women in the Muchness site through a baby loss forum that I credit with saving my sanity. It was THE last place I ever expected to find friendship, love, understanding and unconditional compassion. But I did, and it was due to my pregnancy with little Caoimhe. We went for our 15 week ultrasound, excited to get past it and begin telling friends and family of our wonderful good fortune. But that was not what happened. During the ultrasound we were SO focused on the neuchal fold and those results, which were perfectly normal….but when the Doctor came into the room, he had the worst news I have ever heard. Our baby had multiple markers for a Trisomy diagnosis, whether it was Trisomy 18 or 21 we wouldn’t know until we had a CVS. He explained that with the multiple problems identified, including heart, brain, skeletal and abdominal abnormalities, there was very little chance of a better diagnosis. After the CVS, it was confirmed that our wee baby had Trisomy 18 and our world came crashing around us. We had so many things to consider, so many things to decide. Sadly, and with so much emotional devastation, on September 16, 2010, our wee angel baby Caoimhe was born to heaven.

For such a little thing, she changed our lives forever. Waking up each day after that horrible Thursday was a nightmare, I was so sad, so overwhelmingly sad. But thanks to my incredibly patient, loving and wise husband, and the love and hugs of our two boys, I found my way slowly out of the abyss. But you never fully recover.

Partner that with an event that occurred in 2009 which caused me to doubt myself. I created and then allowed myself to manifest that doubt as “I’m too fat”, “I have ugly hair”, “I don’t know how to wear my makeup”…and the worst “I’m ugly”. So you could say, I let someone steal my muchness. So I’m here, and I’m ready to TAKE IT BACK! So, for me, finding my muchness is going to be about me finding my confidence again. To love my body, to love me and to shouting from the top of a mountain that “I AM MUCHNESS”! Hang on, it could be a wild ride! There will be laughter, and there might be tears…but mostly I hope that it will be fun!
I’m attaching a picture of something I did with GREAT confidence…a tattoo designed by my husband…the red flower for Aodhán, orange for my ginger Caolán and the butterfly for wee Caoimhe…up up and away.

Love & Muchness, Tova


11 thoughts on “WELCOME TINE!!!! OUR NEWEST MUCHNESS CHALLENGER!!!!

  1. Piperlyne Post author

    Beautiful tattoo – beautiful meaning. Welcome to the Muchness! I can’t wait to watch what you do. :)

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  2. Heather

    WOO HOO TINE IS IN THE MUCHNESS HOUSE! So glad to help with a little “shove”. I loved your intro amd look forward to your thirty days! Beautiful tattoo !!! Xo

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  3. Heather P

    You are a perpetual inspiration to me Tine! :) And I look forward to your further exploration of your Muchness! YOU ROCK! Sending you a congratulatory hug from around the corner on 78!

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    • Tine

      Heather P.!!! Who would have thought we`d be here when we met in the Kindergarten playground? So glas to have you along for the crazy ride :-)

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  4. Lynette Revilla

    BEAUTIFUL!! You exude confidence my friend, you always have! I know all to well the feelings you have expressed. I really do look forward to watching and smiling from your daily posts. You always make me smile. Hoping to get out of my slump, and this very well may be what I need. Go grow :) Lots of xoxo…

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    • Tine

      Lynette! You have stuck by through so much…including when I wasn`t muchy, then when I was…and now again as I find my way back. Thank you for being so consistent and for sticking close! Love you back! And cant wait to see you get Muchier too!

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  5. Lynette Revilla

    O.M.G! So I absolutely loved your posts today & wanted to share with Rich. I had read them to myself, and even chuckled a little on the last post about the pork rinds :)
    But there is something about reading out loud, like you are really hearing yourself. You really hear and feel the words. Anyway I could bearly get through the paragraph and I had to bite my lip.
    I know you deeper now, and I am more proud of you. And…
    It’s only the 1st day!! Oh boy…

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