September was not the best month. I don’t know why, for the second year in row, I thought September would be easier than it was. This year, Beryl and I created the Photography Challenge and as exciting as it was, I fell off the Muchness wagon. And I let myself fall off. I just needed the time. But I feel bad, because I feel a responsibility to you to be all Muchness, all the time…and I’m just not. Sometimes The Muchness is Loud and Proud and it makes my insides ignite with joy, and sometimes it’s just a whisper, keeping me inspired and knowing that tomorrow will get better.
Lots of changes in my life happened in September, which is another reason I’ve been a little MIA. I’ll be going into detail a bit later- Maybe in tomorrows post. I miss posting on a regular basis. I miss keeping track of my Muchness Moments. The jewish Holidays this year have been a bit overwhelming, taking up so much time, an my head has been 1000 other places. Beyond Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur- the majors, we still have Succot– which we are in the middle of and lasts a week.
My husbands brother lives in Israel and has four kids- three girls and a boy. Molly and Liat see them so infrequently but are totally obsessed with them. Between them and the other kids in the family, my in-laws house has been overloaded with young cousins. Watching my girls play with their cousins has been awesome. Molly just lights up around other kids (at least ones that she can kinda boss around.) Watching her shine has been my Muchness Moments of late.
Three of my sister-in-laws are also expecting right now. Last night Molly asked me if we can have another baby, like they are and honestly, I told her no. And it didn’t really hurt. Progress.