When you find what you are passionate about, the only sane thing to do is grab that thing by the horns and hold on as tight as you can and let it take you where it needs to go.
I have found my passion.
It is The Muchness.
What started as a fluke, soon turned into a healing tool, a thing that changed me. defined me, opened my eyes and my world to so many amazing people on so many journeys. For a year or more I have questioned what this ‘project’ is that I am building. Is it a hobby? A part-time unpaid job? A way to stay in touch with My Muchness? Yes, Yes and Yes.
The fact is, I can’t not do this. There is nothing I have ever done in my life that combined all my talents and skills and passions and love of glitter better than this ‘project’ I’ve stumbled into. Helping people re-find their joy and re-find their identities after it’s been ripped away from them, either by specific circumstances or just by life in general, fills me with a sense of purpose that gives clarity and meaning to my own grief and suffering.
And the time has come to stop tip-toeing around this ‘project’ – wondering what it is and what it could be. The time has come to put on my big-girl panties, let go of my fear, and announce that THIS, this ‘project’ is no longer just a project. It is everything. I want to put my whole heart and soul into this. When I say I really do want to fill the world with Muchness, I mean it. And I plan to make it happen. One sparkly, shiny sequin at a time.
So, I am now a card carrying member of Marie Forleo‘s RHH B-school. That’s business school for women who want to make a difference and change the world.
Today was Day 1. And this is my many many pages of homework spitting out of the printer.
The Muchness IS My Muchness and documenting, even in a small way, one moment of B-school inspiration every day is going to keep me engaged and working towards my dream. Every time someone emails me a picture of their muchy turqoise and silver nailpolish and says this helped them pull their way out of an otherwise crappy day, I know I am on the right path.
Please cheer me on. I have a feeling this class is seriously gonna kick my ass. (in a good way.)
***Edited to add- I reread this and just want to clarify- I still totally have my day job… But unless I start finding positivity and creativity there like I used to feel, I honestly don’t know how long I will be able to sustain it. Very scary. But I can’t live my life ruled by fear. Not anymore.