I have a confession.
Sometimes I wonder if I should blog more through the random crappy days where I don’t know what I’m doing and second guess myself till I’m blue in the face… but then… well, I don’t wanna be a buzz kill.
I mean, I know even the self-proclaimed Queen Of Muchness is allowed to have those crappy days, and I know that I should really allow you all to see them, because then it will you give you the opportunity to cheer me up, and then we BOTH will have a Muchness Moment! (YAY!) But still, I feel like if I’m here to demonstrate the powers of Muchness, should I really be complaining about the day-to-day crap that sometimes lives rent-free in my head?
The truth is, I have fallen out of the habit of blogging about all types of stuff whenever…and I miss it… I think at some point I got it in my head that every post had to be deep and meaningful and purposeful in a way that I could articulate.
This idea got me totally messed up in my head for a long time.
Because clearly everything I write is incredibly deep and meaningful.
No. Because this is simply my blog. And some days I have shitty days.
And some days I can’t find Muchness. Actually THAT is not true. Somedays I don’t feel like looking for Muchness. Somedays, I just want to dig my ass into the couch and watch TV with my husband. Or, watch TV so bad my husband refuses to watch it with me.
But, the fact is, I am both a teacher and a student of Muchness. I am putting myself out there so that others can learn as I learn. Through practice. And honesty.
Here’s a bit of light entertainment:
I have a friend that started a juicing company…. shes obsessed with fresh made juices and how they make you feel amazing and all this stuff… This passion runs through her to her very bones. She was handmaking and delivering juice all around NJ for months…. running herself ragged…. she was so burnt out and stressed and broke she started bartending to make ends meet. Stopped making juice because she couldnt afford organic produce and found herself drinking beer instead. We were talking and she was like “I feel like such a fraud!!!!” and I was like “That’s how I feel when I wear sneakers!!”
No matter who you are or what you do, no one is perfect and the most we can do is aim your time and life at more positive and helpful than negative. The honest truth is that my day-to-day is SO MUCH better in so many ways than before I found the Muchness that I don’t even measure it against the same stick. I need to remember BTM (before The Muchness) and really keep seeing my littlest Muchness Moments —- there are a ton of them!!
Today’s Muchness Pic Of the day! No Heels!!!
PS- Thanks Ronit for the reminder!